Feeling Reflective

So it is the start of the new year, and all around the sewing blogosphere, people are signing up to various sew-alongs and pledging to undertake projects. I think I have signed up to 1 or two myself, and you will be shocked to hear I have not even started a single one of these projects. Why do I do this? Why do we do it? I am most certain I am not the only one who gets excited when some new project comes up, or some sew-along, signs up, then promptly forgets about it, or just cannot make the time to follow up and actually partake in said sew-along.

Why do you do it?

Is it to have a sense of belonging? to force ourselves to actually make something by partaking in a strict sewing program? to make new friends? to increase our blog readership?

One more thing, why do we choose certain patterns over others? why do we rush to make the latest independent pattern even when we know it is not our style, or does not suit our body type? I have bought patterns in the past just because I saw it made on a blog I follow, and then filed them away and never looked at them again…well not true, I do look at them, and marvel at my foolishness.

Oh, and another one. Why do we follow the blogs we do? is it because we actually like their style, or just because everyone seems to be following them? Do you get excited when you see you have a new follower? I squeal in excitement when I notice a new follower. The flip side is, when I notice I have lost followers, I get sad. why does this affect me? Does it affect you?

Do you look at other blogs with many readers, and wonder what you are doing wrong that you go 5 months without a new follower? I feel that way sometimes. Do you.

Surely, having a blog should not be about how many people follow you, or how many people comment on your posts ( I have been known to wake up at 3am to check if there is a new comment on my recent post….pathetic I know). It is always nice when you start a blog, and no one reads it, or no one comments. You are yourself. You write for yourself, and you are free to express your personality. Then you start getting followers, and you start changing. You start writing for other people, changing into what you think they want you to be. I felt that way sometimes, rushing to sew something, just so I should post about it, cutting corners, just so I could have a post up and have some comments.

The good thing is, even if you go through that phase, you end up finding yourself ( I certainly did). You come to realise that it does not matter how many followers you have. It does not matter that you don’t sew as many items as other people. You realise that like our fingers, not everyone is the same. Not everyone has the same commitments, not everyone has the money or time, or patience or dedication to sew all the time. Not everyone has the space, nor gadgets or access to sewing tools ( I’m still jealous of you…yes, You Americans, with your Joanns and fantastic estate sales). Not everyone is at the same skill level. Don’t beat yourself if your projects don’t turn out the way you thought they would. We all learn by making mistakes.

I am still learning, and I am making more mistakes than I did before, because I want to be better. I want to make nicer and more fitting things, and I am finally trying to do things properly (when I am not being lazy that is, which is most of the time).

I could go on and on, just rambling about stuff, but as it is, my stomach is growling. Food, I want. So if you read this, and think I am bonkers, you probably are right. Don’t blame me though. Blame the hunger. Did you know that being hungry can be used as a defence in court? Yes, hunger can lead to temporary insanity. I am not even joking. All you have to do is read this post to see the effects of hunger on yours truly.