Seriously, Have I?
The time has come for me to go back to work, and I have just discovered I do not have anything to wear to work. Not literally of course, but I am sure I can only assemble 5 items I could consider wearing to work. Which makes me question what I have been doing all this while. What have I been sewing? Why do I have more fabric than clothes? Have I been fooling myself? Have I pushed things too far? For the past year, I have been entering shops and giving people superior stares when they rush to pay for clothes, saying to myself ” I can make that”. I know I can make “that”, but did I?
Will I? That, was the plan. That, is always the plan isn’t it? When we go fabric shopping. Waving about project files, convincing ourselves we ABSOLUTELY need that silky smooth fabric. It is only £4/metre, so why not?
The trouble is £4 adds up. I sometimes justify my fabric buying by saying it saves me money. True, it has the POTENTIAL to save money. That potential is ONLY realised when we do actually make an outfit from said fabric. Then, and only then, will you have saved yourself some money. Buying fabric and not making anything is just as worse as buying ill fitting clothes in the hope that they will miraculously fit you one day ( yeah I’ve done that), or just because you like the look ( guilty again).
So here I am, starting work tomorrow, and finding that I have not made any work appropriate things. The culture of not buying new clothes has entrenched itself so firmly in my head that I get a headache just thinking of the fact that I have to go shopping this weekend to buy some work clothes.
Have you found you found yourself in the situation where you ask yourself these questions too?